The Sin of Fear
During my incarceration I was able to maintain my Christian faith; I went to as many Protestant Christian services as I could go to and at times led a Bible reading group in my dorm.
Since my release from incarceration and parole I have resumed an active church life; prior to my beginning to attend Sunday services, I met with the pastor and informed him of my wish to begin attending services there and of my convicted sex offender past.
Also since my release from parole stipulations, I have become an outspoken activist on sex offender/registry issues. If you had known me in my old life, you would understand what a leap this putting myself so blatantly out into the public eye for scrutiny and possible risk is.
I understand the fear of being an advocate for something that so many despise and fear to the point of violence, but the truth is; nothing is ever going to change unless we make it change by overcoming these fears and becoming engaged to educate the public to the truth about sex offenses, sex offenders, their families and the effects of the registries.
I understand the fear that comes with having your house or computer searched just because somebody in law enforcement decides it needs to be done; even when you know you’re doing no wrong.
I know the fear of worrying about your kids at school just because they’re your kids and you’re on the registry, because nobody can be crueler than another kid who thinks they have something to hold over you.
I know the fear of being one of the first to exercise the newfound social networking freedom granted in Indiana by the U.S. 7th Circuit Court of Appeals just a couple short months ago.
I understand the fear of enrolling in the local community college when the registry laws require that a registrant report their address, place of employment and place of study so all can be posted on the internet for all to see, including your classmates
I know the fear of doing all of this while still being on probation with time still hanging over your head.
I understand not wanting to draw attention to you and your family, but I refuse to let fear rule over me and dictate my actions. I can make a very long list of why I should crawl in a hole and hide, but I refuse.
While I was incarcerated, I wrote a sermon titled:
The Sin of Fear
My NIV Study Bible lists 14 different things people feared, as in being afraid of, there is:
The fear of seeing God
Fear of a vision of angels
Fear of the unknown
Fear of the punishment of sin
Fear of danger
Fear of being killed
Fear of losing one’s life
Fear of losing one’s loved ones
Fear of bringing unpleasant news
Fear of an enemy
Fear of a person in authority
Fear of what another person might do
Fear of what another person might say
and Fear of the future
There might be more things in life for us to be afraid of, but if we don’t learn to conquer our fears and are afraid, we can scare ourselves from doing basic things we need to do for ourselves and our families. We can even scare ourselves and let our fears prevent us from enjoying the full life God has intended for each of us.
We are not to be afraid or scared. Do you know? The NIV Bible tells us in the forms:
“Do not be afraid”
“Do not be alarmed”
“Do not fear”
and “Do not be frightened”, at least 138 times
We are not to live our lives in fear.
In Genesis 15:1, God commands Abram:
“Do not be afraid Abram, I am your shield,
your very great reward.”
In Joshua 1:9, God commands Joshua:
“Have I not commanded you? Be strong and
courageous. Do not be afraid, do not be discouraged,
for the Lord your God will be with you wherever you go.”
Psalm 27:1 says:
“ The Lord is my light and my salvation-
of whom shall I be afraid?”
Psalm 91 says:
“ Whoever dwells in the shelter of the
will rest in the shadow of the
I will say of the Lord, ‘He is my
refuge and my fortress,
My God in whom I trust.’
Surely He will save you
from the fowler’s snare
and from the deadly pestilence.
He will cover you with his feathers,
and under his wings you will find
His faithfulness will be your shield
You will not fear the terror of night,
nor the arrow that flies by day,
nor the pestilence that stalks in the
nor the plague that destroys at
A thousand may fall at your side,
ten thousand at your right hand,
but it will not come near you.
You will only observe with your eyes
and see the punishment of the
If you say, ‘The Lord is my refuge,’
and you make the Most High your
no harm will overtake you,
No disaster will come near your tent.
For He will command his angels
to guard you in all your ways;
they will lift you up in their hands,
so that you will not strike your foot
against a stone
you will tread on the great lion and
‘Because he loves me,’ says the Lord,
‘I will rescue him;
I will protect him, for he
acknowledges my name.
he will call on me, and I will answer
I will be with him in trouble,
I will deliver him and honor him
with long life I will satisfy him
and show him my salvation.
In 2 Chronicles Chapter 32, King Hezekiah is preparing to defend Jerusalem against Sennacherib, king of Assyria and his army.
Versus 6-8 say: ‘He appointed military officers over the people
and assembled them before him in the square
at the city gate and encouraged them with
these words: ‘Be strong and courageous. Do
not be afraid or discouraged because of
the king of Assyria and the vast army
with him, for there is a greater power
with us than with him. With him is only the
arm of flesh, but with us is the Lord our
God to help us fight our battles.’
Matthew 8:23-27: ‘Then he (Jesus) got into the boat and his disciples
followed him. Suddenly a furious storm came up
on the lake, so that the waves swept over the boat.
But Jesus was sleeping. The disciples went and
woke him, saying, ‘Lord, save us! We’re going to
drown!’ He replied, ‘You of so little faith, why are
you so afraid?’ Then he got up and rebuked the
winds and the waves, and it was completely calm.
The men were amazed and asked, ‘What kind of
man is this? Even the winds and the waves obey
Jesus is telling us, we have the ability to calm our own fears, our storms and troubles, if we have true faith and do not doubt God, because God is all powerful and he loves us. Faith, belief and prayer are the keys.
Above all, remember; 1 John 4:18-19 says:
‘There is no fear in love. But perfect love drives out
fear, because fear has to do with punishment. The one
who fears is not made perfect in love. We love because
He first loved us.’
In Matthew 22:37-39, Jesus tells us, the two greatest commandments are:
‘Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind. This is the first and greatest commandment. And the second is like it: Love your neighbor as yourself.’ All the law and the Prophets hang on these two commandments.’
We are to have no fear in any circumstances, for God loves us, and if we “dwell in” and “Love the Lord your God,” he tells us:
‘Because he loves me’ says the Lord,
‘I will rescue him;
I will protect him, for he
acknowledges my name.’
I hate to go here, but since God made them I guess it’ll be OK and I’m sure he’ll forgive me if it’s not, but now you know why I say, “I’ve got balls big as an elephant's”, it's because I know that no matter where I go, God will be there with me and you too if you let him.